My childhood was normal till I was maybe 8-11. I started to gain weight out of no where. I want to say it was because of puberty but who knows. My father and grandmother (his mother) where concerned about my weight. He was more concerned about my weight because he didn't want want me to end up like his mother, who wasn't that big of a woman to being with. And then there's my grandmother. The woman who would yell at you if you didn't eat enough or yell at you and say your gonna be fat because you ate to much. So dad had me on every diet out there in the late 90s - early 00's.
Once I hit high school that all changed I barely ate, slept all day. And I still thought I was fat then and I wasn't. Around this time depression and anxiety started to kick in. Oh yeah, lets not forget I was also taking advantage of when I was 14.
Me and all my friends (who I thought where my friends) use to hang out at the mall. There was one guy who was 4 years older then me, took a shine to me. No one warned me of who he was but he hung out with all of us. He wanted to take a walk with me and I gave my best friend that look like "save me" but she didn't. She was to busy playing tosil hockey with the guy she was dating at the time.. He took me to the woods behind the mall and touched me in places I didn't want to be touched. I didn't know what to do. I was frozen in fear... but you know what I eventually did? I put my pants back on walked back to the mall with him, like nothing ever happened. If I went to the mall and he was there I'd look the other way or not even go near him. The only person who knew what happened at the time was my best friend. My parents don't even know to this day. I was just thankful I am still alive.
Once I hit high school that all changed I barely ate, slept all day. And I still thought I was fat then and I wasn't. Around this time depression and anxiety started to kick in. Oh yeah, lets not forget I was also taking advantage of when I was 14.
Me and all my friends (who I thought where my friends) use to hang out at the mall. There was one guy who was 4 years older then me, took a shine to me. No one warned me of who he was but he hung out with all of us. He wanted to take a walk with me and I gave my best friend that look like "save me" but she didn't. She was to busy playing tosil hockey with the guy she was dating at the time.. He took me to the woods behind the mall and touched me in places I didn't want to be touched. I didn't know what to do. I was frozen in fear... but you know what I eventually did? I put my pants back on walked back to the mall with him, like nothing ever happened. If I went to the mall and he was there I'd look the other way or not even go near him. The only person who knew what happened at the time was my best friend. My parents don't even know to this day. I was just thankful I am still alive.
Has anyone else been in a situation like this before? What did you do? Where you frozen in fear too?
